One With The Worms

     Parasites.

     We all get them.

     Not. 

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     Can I tell you how determined I was not to get sick on this trip? Well, that lasted a good three weeks. After being up all night with stomach pains two nights in a row, we figured out what was wrong.

     Yes, there was life growing within me, and it was most certainly NOT a human. I would say a baby because little Wormy could be a baby. Who knows?

     And you read correctly. I named him Wormy. Sorry if I'm completely grossing you out.

     No, seriously, I have never been more frustrated with sickness in my life. I hate to admit that for a moment I was angry at God for letting it happen to me. Yeah, that sounds horrible, but allow me to let you into my head for a moment.

     Things are going so smooth, and you know you're where you are supposed to be...serving God and doing His work...but then all of a sudden it all stops abruptly. You're in the most pain you can ever remember feeling. You're asking God to please, please take it away. But the night continues, which turns into day, which turns into a second night, which turns into exhaustion and feeling oh, so defeated.

     Why, God? Why am I going through this right now? All I'm trying to do is what You want me to do.

     It's funny how in situations like this, we don't hesitate to cry out to Him -- almost even blame Him and expect Him to fix everything for us.

     I'll never know why God didn't just heal me when I was in so much pain, or why He didn't prevent sickness in the first place. That's something I've never understood, and I probably never will. I guess that's what makes faith so beautiful, isn't it?

     Jesus asked God, if it was His will, to take the burden of being crucified off his shoulders. God didn't. Jesus still followed through. To me, that is the coolest part of the story. Faith is such an unexplainable, extraordinary thing.

     So, this past week in a nutshell...  
     I was sick. God didn't heal me when I asked Him to, and I realized what it really means to serve faithfully.

     Thanks for reading.